Detour

Ok...so I have taken a brief detour.  I can't believe that I am already doing this a few days into the process of getting myself in the habit of spending time in the word.  I actually am starting a new Bible study at church on how to develop a quiet time.  I am in serious need of this people!

I have done two days of the study so far although I am a day behind.  The first day really revealed something.  It said that God reveals something new to us everyday...we just have to be there to realize it and accept.  For the past few days, I have been looking for those lessons.  The first thing I realized came at the funeral that I attended last night for a church friend's husband who passed away last week.  Our pastor read Psalm 23 and I got a whole new meaning out of it.  When it says "As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death...", the pastor reminded us that God walks us through it, not to it as a final destination.  That had so many meanings for me.  This life is temporary and while death may seem permanent to me sometimes because I can't come back in my human form and hug my kids and other loved ones, it isn't the end.  My life will just start a new phase, a good phase.  Wow...what a huge revelation for me.  I am surrounded by death this week but I am reminded that Jesus conquered that.

Last night's lesson was about giving up everything to know more about God.  It struck me.  God knows everything about me, even down to the number of hairs I have on my head through the daily brushes!  LOL  It really woke me up to the fact that I really ignore God.  It mentioned how we nurture new relationships.  We don't meet people and then ignore them to develop relationships.  We do everything we can to learn more about them to cultivate the relationship.

I am here to admit that I have never really developed a good quiet time with God.  I am the one that does the Bible studies, like the ones by Beth Moore, and do five days worth of work/studying in one day.  I hate procrastinating, but have no problem doing it with the Word.  It's embarrassing.  I hope to change this.  I want to be an example to my kids that I have a daily relationship with God that I hope that I can inspire them to do as well.  Right now we are having nightly devotions.  They quickly remind me when we have missed one.  That's definitely a good sign to me!  They are keeping me accountable for those.  Now, I need someone to keep me accountable to having the daily quiet time.  Do you want to be that person?  You think I am joking, but I am not!